2-13-13 Uncertainties…

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Today I am packing again, tomorrow hiting the road again, for one more race.  This one is closer to home and again on familiar trails.  On some level, I know what to expect, but in reality I am filled with lots of uncertainties. 

I’m HOPING my dog team looks more familiar to me this week than they looked at Cascade Quest, functioning as a unit and ENJOYING running down the trails.  I’m HOPING Tozi is healthy and doesn’t show any signs of continued back soreness, especially after pulling away from me during checking his back last night.  I’m HOPING Cicely decides it’s more fun to run than to ride, and actually keeps up with the team for a good steady10 miles.  I’m HOPING it’s a fun weekend, even though it’s not a “long race” like I’ve been gearing up for all season.  I’m surprised to be finding myself still a bit let down that we only have short races in front of us…at least this year.  I’m finding I have a lot of questions, new questions, about what my goals are with my team, with my pack…even though I thought I had them all answered already.  I’m finding that I actually am driven to continue racing, and to continue to try some longer distance races as I’m able to train for them, but do not want to put myself in the position I was in this year of having to push so hard to get miles on the team when it’s not naturally working out.  There’s something to be said for Pam’s statement earlier about making race plans once the season gets started and after you see what kind of miles you can get and what the snow conditions are like and what the rest of life is requiring time-wise.  There’s something to be said for Margaret’s last minute decision to run (and finishing) the 100 mile Race To The Sky instead of trying to force it to happen all season long (with all the stress that comes with that type of plan).   I think the thing that draws me to the longer races is the fact that we can be steady even if we can’t be fast, and in theory should be a little closer to the other teams’ times, and yet with that being said, I do want them to go faster.  I guess I’m a bit conflicted… looking at my team that I know started out FASTER at the beginning of the season and got SLOWER as time has gone on.  I think I trained too much on hills with a loaded sled and not enough faster, fun runs.  I’m HOPING that they’ll find that speedier pace again even if it doesn’t happen until next season.  If not, do I want another dog to add to the mix?  What would that mean for Cicely?  She could still train with the team and stay behind for races.  Or do I need to tailor my desires based on the current make-up of my team? 

Having lots of uncertainties is definitely frustrating, especially when I felt like I had such a clear direction earlier this season, but it makes me rejoice in the fact that  my Lord knows where I’m headed with my little team, and I can relax in His perfect plan…even if I’m clueless as to what it is!  I know He will reveal what I need to know in the way and time that I need to know it, and not one second before.  What a joy to rest in a Sovereign and Loving Lord at times like these, as well as at times when I think I know what I’m doing!  For now, I don’t know where we’re headed or what we’re called to do, other than to continue to follow the Good Shepherd as He leads us down the next Trail of Grace!


Psalm 16: 1, 11-  Keep and protect me, O God, for in You I have found refuge, and in You do I put my trust and hide myself… 11 You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy, at Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore.


Psalm 119:105  Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.


2 Corinthians 5:7–  For we walk by faith [we regulate our lives and conduct ourselves by our conviction or belief respecting man’s relationship to God and divine things, with trust and holy fervor; thus we walk] not by sight or appearance.

Hebrews 11: 8, 12:1-2–   By faith Abraham, when he was called to go out into a place which he should after receive for an inheritance, obeyed; and he went out, not knowing whither he went….  12:1…  let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith…


All of life’s aiming and striving  (J.R. Miller)
Character grows as the baby matures into manhood. Every day something is written on our character, some mark made.
The mother writes something; the teacher writes something; every day’s experiences write some words; every touch or influence of other lives, leaves some mark; temptation and struggle, do their part in filling the page; books, education, sorrow, joy, companions, friends– all of life touches and paints some line of beauty–or scratches some mark of marring on our character.
Our final character, is the result of all these influences which work and co-work upon our life. In the end… all of life’s aiming and striving should be towards His blessed beauty.
“For those God foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of His Son!” Romans 8:29



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